Monday: It begins.

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I didn’t post yesterday due to Monday being a gargantuan challenge – the first day back at university. Yes, I kept leaving to take breaks to calm my anxiety in the first lecture – seven times to be precise. And yeah, so what I didn’t make it to my second lecture?  I am incredibly proud of myself as I made it in to see my mentor Louise. That’s what’s important.

I had a mental breakdown in-front of Louise. It was the first time she’s ever seen me in such an agonizing state. The majority of that time, my pain seeped through as I spoke the incoherent language of madness. Louise is contacting the mental health services on my behalf, as apparently, I require anti-psychotics? Flowgression only depressingly skims on the surface of my suicidal ideation. I don’t want it to sink into the depths of another whining diary. I want to focus on fitness.

Talking of fitness, the gym is going incredibly well. Within the next 24 hours I will post the results of the first cycle of my gym routine. Maybe even some pictures to track progress? I think most would be surprised by my physique at present. Anyways, busy day ahead…

Peace out. xo



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